PROGRESS!!!

So I have been to the docs and she has dropped me down to 6mg!!!
First off she asked me if i was happy on 8, to which i said no, i want to decrease, I think she was quite surprised as many people usually increase to 16?
But i agreed to decease to 6 and then stick it out at 6 for a while. She said til after Xmas, i said bonfire night?!

I hope i don't shoot myself in the foot trying to run before i can walk? (maybe i should put the gun down before i move anywhere?!)

So Ive have had my 8 today and tomorrow in down to 6! Hopefully il be able to sleep a little now because these tablets are amazing for giving you loads of energy-so much so that iv forgotten what it feels like to be tired?! (naturally tired?!)

while Im here im going to have a moan at a couple of other things.... I need some Karma luck.... some evil female has upset me (even Kay/Kat will back me up on that!) and she needs some bad Karma back for her actions..... If Karma don't come soon I'll create my own!! (im refraining from doing so just yet in protection of my own Karma....?!)

The other thing is, i think i need something to keep me calm and keep my goodness focused?! If i had the things i need i would get creative and make myself a pendant or something, to absorb my negative energy, because idiot nasty people are winding me up and messing with my aura?! (im sure they not but its better than messing with my mind?! Ha!)

If you could erase people from your life would you do it? That's what im wondering? Especially when i have to think-that in ten years time i won't really have anything to do with them any more? But if you erased them it would mean no contact ever again? would a lifetime of curiosity be worse than continuous irritations?! Curiosity killed the cat but irritation probably killed a whole bunch of other people?! (women's mags are full of stories!)

What would be nice would be to just have a little peek, maybe like into 12months from now, then i could see what i were meant to be doing with my life, and then i would know who is worth my time now and who's not?! Apparently I'm meant to be having a daughter when I'm 27... so iv always been told? I cant see that happening somehow?! i wont have to wait long to find out, its my birthday at Xmas!

The weird thing is that ever since i was little i always wanted to be 27....When i was young i used to think that being 27 was the best thing ever&it was going to be the best year ever and it would be like the start of my proper life? like being a grown up, well as you do think when you are 7year old?! but also for a while i thought i was going to die when i was 27..? Maybe i was? maybe that was indeed my destiny if i had not changed my ways? but I have so now what?????

I will have to wait and see what the future had in store for me? I do feel like things are going to change massively? i don't know what makes me think that? but i said so to Katie and Rachael the other fay that i think in 12months time things will a whole world away from how they are today? The only reason behind it i can think of is that when im 27 i will in fact be in my 28th year of life, life gos in 7year cycles (supposedly) so it will be the start of my 4th life cycle?

Maybe that's it?

waffle over I'm done for today x x x

PS-those people who know me and have found out through this.... I'm sorry!
I think i will text me oldest 2 friends soon, Ive been staying away, purposely because of this and i don't want them to know me like i was? but hopefully now I'm normal again i can rekindle friendships? (also its always worked that when one of us has got a new boyfriend someone else gets dumped...so by any combination it seems that one person gets dumped as the other two are all loved up, its odd but its always been like that! I'm not saying im loved up by any stretch, but im happy with who im seeing, but those two are both in LTR and i don't want to jinx them!) HA! xx